|Ryan, Talitha and I -- she's one week old!|
I love seeing babies. I love holding babies. And I just cannot get enough of babies, babies, babies.
The day I gave birth to Talitha three years ago I said to Ryan in a not-so-compromising voice, "We MUST have another baby!"
He gently reminded me of all I'd gone through a few hours previous to that moment, and I completely dismissed him.
I'd made up my mind. And once that happens, there's almost no turning back.
I'm pretty sure that my picture is featured in the dictionary right next to the word "persistent." Although, some may think it needs to be featured near other words like, crazy, impulsive, and didn't think this through. We will stick with 'persistent' about this topic and debate about the others in another blog post. (Maybe.)
So, off I went to make plans for another child in our lives last September, which we all know didn't work out as I'd planned.
But it made my resolution to bring another little one into our family all the more intense.
Some people might say women in this situation - that is, the situation of being almost 40 and having their biological clocks CLANGING LOUDLY in their ears every moment of every day - are desperate but I like to think of them (and myself) as having an intense desire or being resolved better.
I prayed about it. I asked friends and family about it. I Googled about it. Then, I started to answer all the questions that nagged at me for years. Here is a sampling of those questions, because, frankly if I listed all of the questions it would not help you like me:
1) With Cancer in our lives - is that the best decision for our family? See this blog for some really, really helpful clues in this area. Keep in mind this couple didn't have any kids to begin with, so it was a different scenario than mine. But good food for thought, nonetheless.
2) What if it didn't work? I already knew the pain of 6 years of infertility and miscarriage. But this was different.
3) What have other people in my situation done? I like what Brooke Filson wrote on this thread about her thoughts when she was pregnant and her husband had Cancer.
And of course, over the years, there were many, many other questions I processed.
In the end, Ryan and I decided to give it one more shot through in vitro last March.
And praise God -- it worked!!!
Please pray for us as we prepare for our newest blessing set to arrive, Lord willing, the day after Thanksgiving this year!
|Baby Waters 2.0, Due on 11/27/15|